i’ve been having these incredibly intense and violent dreams the last few days and every time i wake up my heart is beating really fast and i feel like i’m coming down from an adrenaline rush and i’m a little worried it’s going to spill over into my conscious life. but at the same time i think that maybe getting it all out in my sleep is preventing me from being consumed by homicidal rage after i wake up.
commenting on my own fb posts tends to increase the negative perception of my mental state in friends minds but yknow what? it’s ok if somebody else comments first right? well nobody ever comments so there i go talking to myself out loud and just hoping that someone will listen, and i am okay with that because it would otherwise be a very boring representation of my personality, and i really do have quite a lot to express, no matter whether it connects with someone or not, and especially if it’s on the topic of how much i fucking hate facebook, or how i’m perceiving my own mental state.
i like to get so high i can barely function and then try to perform at a higher level than i do sober
somebody called me a “BMOS” yesterday and i only just found out that it stands for “Black Man on Skis” bahahaha wtf